Mornings

I am way more productive in the morning than I am in the evening. On Friday I woke up at 5am and was able to wash dishes, make a oven baked lunch, get myself ready and get to work by 6:30. Today I woke up at 6am and was able to fold my laundry, get to the gym, work out and now post this . . . all before 8:30am ;) . . . ahhh the feeling of accomplishment. Too bad I cant seem to get up early on the weekdays to get to the gym, gotta figure that one out.

What I did . . .
2 mile jog/walk
1 mile uphill/downhill
1 mile elliptical
Total calories: 725

So I'm trying to work on the time it takes me to get three miles done on a treadmill. Today the time was 46 minutes. I'm gonna keep posting the time and see how it changes (and hopefully it'll change :) )

100 miles done

As of last night I made it over 100 miles this year. Not as mu This is awesome (I was about to put a negative comment, however changed my mind) 100 miles is a big deal, I hope that now that I've gotten over that first 100 miles the next 900 go by quick ;)

New goal . . . I told my trainer last night that I have a new goal for myself. I want to be able to jog/run 3 miles straight. I've been able to do one and I've been able to do like a jogging and walking combination for 3 miles but I wanna be able to have the endurance to continue for 3 while miles. Once I'm able to do that I think I'm gonna sign up for a 5k . . . on my own, we'll see.

Last night was hard, I'm not sure if its because I had already worked out for 45 minutes or so prior trying to start this endurance thing, but it was soooo difficult to just get through 1 mile. I hope that the next time I get into Lifetime its easier b/c I'll start off working on endurance.


What I did . . . 
1.5 mile elliptical
1.5 mile treadmil
training
total calories: 775

Lost Motivation

I've lost my motivation to even try anymore . . .
I dont care about working out
I dont care about eating (this one has been for a few weeks now)
I dont care about running (which is weird)



Feeling like my life and goals look like this and theres no middle ground . . . however I keep bumping into the pole b/c I dont know where I wanna go.

If you find my motivation could you let me know where I can pick it up, thanx.

What a week . .

This week has been absolutly crazy . . . Heres what I managed to accomplish . .
-work 5 days a week (not a big feat, but a feat)
- 3 year meeting for a student
- 2 hour observation with D
- 3 days additional work with D
- 4 days of working out
- 2 baking sessions (brownies and chocolate chip/walnut cookies . . . needed to happen)
- freaking out at a friend
- feeling insecure b/c of a decision made
- feeling like a dumba** at work
- hitting a car

This weekend had to be good. I went to see Black Swan and if the camera angles were a little different I would have loved it . . . I'm kind of into that dark creepy kind of movie ;)

I worked out for an hour and a half today and right now my neck and back kill, but honestly it was totally worth it. I worked out 4 days this week thus far and have been able to accomplish the 3500 calories burned for the week. I'm still gonna attempt to workout tmr morning but that'll be additional calories onto my 3500 :D


What I did . . . 
3 miles jog/walk (1 min walk/3min jog . . . just like to say through the 3 miles I jogged for 2 of them)
1 mile uphill/downhill @ 3.7
3 miles elliptical
Total calories burned: 1200

Squats . . . my arch enemy!

On Monday for training I did a bunch of squats, and let me tell you my legs cried out in pain for the next two days. I'm such a masochist that I enjoyed the pain . . . you know how it is, when you're sore after a workout you know you did well. I haven't had soreness in awhile and it made me feel like I accomplished something.

This week has been so bloody long . . . with working at MDS, working with D, going to workout, 3 year meeting at school (teachers know what I'm talking about) I just wish tomorrow was friday, but alas its not . . . its only Thursday . . . wwaaaaa!

What I did . . . 
3 mile elliptical
training
total calories 650 :)

What I ate . . . 
chobani
banana
pretzels
white rice
veg. egg roll (2)
cream cheese wontons (2)
cinnamon tea
corn dogs

I talked with my trainer tonight about my body image, sad thing is I cant have a serious conversation about this issue with anyone (other than probably my mom). I always have to add a joke or a degrading comment or something . . . I just cant do it, I dont want people to pity me but at the same time I HATE how I look. J said it was 'fat girl syndrome' . . . no matter how hard you work or what you currently look like you still see yourself as the size you started off as . . . ok, so thats my issue, now how do I get over it without having to go see Dr. Phil? And how do i talk to people about it without making it sound like a big joke to myself?

:) . . . had to do the smiley face or the ending would have been too serious!

I wonder . . .

I wonder if people read my blog in the same manner that I write them. Probably not . . . but an interesting concept.

NEW SHIRT!

So I bought this new shirt (and one in pink) with the idea that I'd wear them for working out. See I hate underarm sweat and I sweat like nasty at the gym, so me being a genius, I thought this would solve that problem. One thing . . . I HATE showing my body at the gym . . . have you seen some of the people there, perfect bodies, can wear anything and would rock it. So, I change into this at home, get to the gym . . . take my jacket off, and decide to put a zippered hoodie on to cover up . . . who wears a freaking hoodie at the gym . . . all because I couldn't bear to wear this stupid shirt alone. Working out was horrid with the hoodie . . . I was hot, it was gross and I'm pretty sure I started to smell. I then decided to do a run where I thought, theres no way I'm wearing this jacket . . . I took the hoodie off only to feel stupid but so good because it was wayyyyy cooler (not like johnny depp cool, but like alaska cool). Thats the story of my shirt :)

What I did . . . 
1 mile sprints (6.0/3.3 1 min each)
1.5 mile walk 3.5 with incline
1.5 mile elliptical
total calories burned: 825

what I ate . . . (yep attempting that again)
chobani
banana
apple
pretzel rods
salad (croutons, lettuce, dried cranberries, dressing, egg, carrots)
latte
berry muffin
hotdogs (meatless)
baked potato
(i'll calorie count it later)

Thats my beautiful day . . . off to sleep and then do another one ;)

Hard!

I've been having a hard week . . . hard meaning work has been long, getting to the gym has been difficult, staying at the gym and getting a decent workout the most challenging.

I managed to get to the gym twice today and although right now I feel like a truck just ran me over I feel great. :)
Oh happy times at the gym ;)

What I did . . .
(first workout)
4 mile elliptical
calories: 550

(second workout)
2 mile elliptical
2 mile jog/walk (4.8 for 5 minutes, 3.5 for 2 minutes)
1 mile uphill/downhill walk
calories: 850
total calories burned : 1400

Pretty proud of myself that I actually managed to get into Lifetime twice . . .

My eating habits have been REALLY BAD . . . for some reason I just dont care and cant seem to get myself on a good track. I feel like I've given myself different motivational techniques, incentives, goals, etc and nothing works . . . maybe i'm just doomed.

Grosses thing I heard today at the gym . . .
2 ladies (early 50's) walk up to 2 guys (50's or so)
One lady tells one guy "couldnt believe that both of us used to be his girlfriends at one point" (referring to the other guy standing there). Guy answers "you two look too smart to get involved with him". Other guy (the ex-boyfriend) states "all I can say is, they were both really good" . . .
I can only imagine what he was talking about, and 50 year old people should not be talking about that in the gym at a volume I can over hear!

Almost

Everytime I think that I need to write here I decide what my subject/title will be . . . soo many thoughts go through my mind and at the moment if I'm in a bad mood I want the title to be a mean one, however then I wait like 12 hours and when I actually sit down to write no title comes to mind . . . weird.

What I did .. . 
3 mile elliptical
1 mile uphill/downhill @ 3.5
training (that kinda kicked my butt)
total calories burned: 950


What I ate . . .
banana
chobani
salad
pop chips (a great way to get low calorie chips :) )
cherries
apple
green beans
vegetarian egg rolls
cookies (thank goodness they're all gone now)

I've eaten REALLY bad the last few days, it was obvious when I went on the scale this morning and had a 2lb gain . . . even though I workout eating bad doesnt cancel that out. I hate eating soooo much. I need to make a change for Feb but its soooooo hard!

One month is done and the whole 1000 mile challenge is still in effect . . . for me at least. I've completed 55 miles for the month of January. Not nearly as many as I should do in order to be "on track" . . . I believe I need to have 83 a month. I need to really kick it up if I'm going to come anywhere close to 1000 miles. If i dont do it now, I'm going to hate myself in Sept.