BAD WEEKEND

My bad day on Friday has led to a bad weekend . . . the triple punch on Friday has lead to to feel completely defeated.

Its only Sunday morning but i already see my day as a bad day . . . I'm gonna try to do the whole workout thing and eating right, however I dont see it happening . . .

I'm hoping no one reads this blog entry . . . its not good, its pretty depressing.

And PS and BTW I'm really sick of guys being complete douches . . . either man up and actually commit to what you say you're going to do or just be honest. Literally . . . Literally . . . Literally the only guys I trust in my life that hold to their words are 3 close guy friends in my life, my father and my brother. Its sad that only 5 guys in my life are who I trust. Arrrggggg


365 days . . . 6 days down . . . 359 left to go ;)

BAD DAY

The day started off, continued to be bad and looks like will end bad.

This post will be all complaining, I feel I need to warn everyone/anyone who reads this.
I weighed in this morning and i gained 2.4 lbs . . . after a week of actually trying hard, working out and eating right I still gained weight. Theres honestly something wrong with this picture. I have a trainer, I go to Lifetime 4x a week, I dont drink soda, I dont eat candy, what is wrong??? I should stop trying I should just eat and do nothing maybe then the weight will come off. Boooo

So as I vented to co-workers today these are some of the suggestions I got for the weight gain . . .

1. you havent weighed yourself in 2 weeks
2. maybe you need a new trainer
3. maybe you should do something different with your workouts
4. maybe you should eat healthier

I dont like the suggestions! Thats all i have to say to that.
Today is horrible, but I'm gonna get back on the wagon and do better tmr and for the week . . . I hope that not allowing myself to totally give up will pay off next friday morning on that effin scale.

365 days . . . 5 days down . . . 360 left to go ;)

ho hum

What I ate . . . 
Coffee
Cheese crackers
Fiber bar (2)
Nelson's Veggie sandwich (1/2)
Grapes
Pretzel dipping sticks (14)
String Cheese
TJ slim pretzels
Cheese
Salad (romaine, ice berg, egg, cheese, carrots, cranberries, croutons and ranch)
Soup (broccoli and cheddar)
Breadsticks (only 90 cal ea)

Wow that seems like a lot . . . hummm

Workout . . . 
15 minute elliptical
1 mile sprint (1 min 6.0, 1 min 3.5)
1 mile uphill/downhill walk
1 mile light jog (4.5)

Randomness . . . 
Watched Glee on Hulu tonight . . . Rock Horror Picture Show . . . my fav!

365 days . . . 4 day down . . . 361 left to go ;)

Love the thought of sprinting . . .

Not really in a writing mood right now . . . would rather be stuffing my face.

What I ate . . . 
Coffee
Asian noodles
Veggie eggroll
Wonton (1)
Grapes
Trader Joe's slim pretzels
Veggie sandwich (from Nelsons . . . delicious)
Sun Chips
String cheese

I thought i was doing good today, keeping things out of my mouth, but I just got home from working out and I cant get enough food in my mouth opening . . . its not good, I don't have any food here that's exactly 'bad' for me, but still there's gotta be a point where I just stop eating.

Workout for today . . . 
825 calories burned off
15 minute elliptical
Personal Training session (sprints, suitcases, lunge thingies)
1 mile sprinting (6.0 for .16 mile, then 3.0 for 1 minute)
1 mile walking (uphill/downhill at 3.5)

Well there we go, I think I need to go to bed now . . . before I put on all the calories I burned off.

365 days . . . 3 day down . . . 362 left to go ;)

I can only do what I can handle . . . and I rock!

Today at work totally stressed me out, too much to cover, too much to do, too many people to help.
Sometimes its just not worth it . . .

What I ate . . .
Green Smoothie (strawberries, peach, berries, spinach and juice)
Coffee
Stir Fry (snow peas, broccoli, carrots and 2/3c rice)
Fiber Bar
Cheese (5 slices)
Pretzel dipping sticks (7)
Asian noodle mixture
Veggie eggroll
Wontons (yea thats right . . . they're bad, but they were soooooo good)

Workout . . . 
Tuesdays are workout excuse days, I dont have to hit up Lifetime and its my one day to not feel guilty about skipping. Every other day I skip I can feel guilty.

My Randomness . . .
So like I said earlier today was a sucky day at work. I just have no respect for some of the people I work with and how they think they are the only important/busy ones. But then again there are my other co-workers who I find amazing, and then there are others that I just find a new thing to like about them on a daily basis. I do like the fact that there's a variety of people at work . . . however if the ones that get on my nerves continuously could just leave that would be great :)

365 days . . . 2 day down . . . 363 left to go ;)

Day 1 = Success

Today was actually a very decent day . . . I believe it was all the talk of this blog, it helped me think about what I was putting in my mouth and what I was doing.


What I ate today . . . 
- Green Smoothie (peach, berries, strawberries, spinach and juice)
- Coffee (YUM!)
- Egg salad sandwich (egg, mayo, mustard, lettuce, bread)
- Apple
- Slices of Cheese (4)
- Fiber bar
- Pretzel dipping sticks (7)
- Salad (romaine, iceberg, croutons, dried cranberries, cheese, carrots and ranch)

What I wanted to eat . . . 
- Brownies my mother made
- starburst that are sitting in my candy dish
- jolly rancher suckers in my cookie jar
- trail mix thats sitting on the self at Trader Joe's 

So I'm not doing calorie counting right now . . . I could, I just know how time consuming that is and I'm sure someone reading this will volunteer and calculate the amount of calories I've taken in. Keep in mind I should be taking in 1500 to 1800 a day . . . let me know what my total is for today :).

Moment of Randomness . . . 
Watching 'Big Bang Theory'
Sheldon: "Howard where did you get your shoes"
Howard: "What?"
Sheldon: "Buzzinga, I don't care"
That made me laugh for like 3 minutes . . . . Hilarious!

Workout . . .
I killed it at Lifetime today, pushed myself beyond what I thought I'd do.
I go to calories burned, not distance, not time
I wanted to  burn between 700 and 750 tonight . . . . tonight i walked out having burned 850. Go me!


15 minute elliptical
30 minutes (Personal Training) 20 sec/10 sec thingies : something i truly enjoy (even though i whine through it)
1 mile treadmill (1/10 of mile jog at 6.0, 1/10 of mile walk at 3.4)
2nd mile treadmill (uphill / downhill walk at 3.5)

Well that was my day . . . I think good and productive!

Goal is to write this for 365 days . . . 1 day down . . . 364 left to go ;)

Cracking Down . . .

Getting tired of my own malarkey and not jumping on the bandwagon of losing weight.

The intention behind this blog will be to chronicle what I do/eat on a daily (or 4 x a week) basis . . . accountability and action is the name of the game.

Stay tuned and help me be accountable by commenting and encouraging me on my road to recovery (if you think about it, its totally true . . . recovering myself from this unhappy empty shell that I am)