Don't get it

I dont get what my deal is this month. I cannot seem to get to the gym. I think that after I admitted that the 1000 miles wasn't going to happen my body took a turn for the worse . . . I've gained weight, I've stopped caring, and I've stopped exercizing. In the last 13 days I've gone to the gym 4 times . . . thats not normal, by now I should have already gone to the gym 8 to 9 times . . . :(

I'm sad and I dont know how to get out of this rut.
HELP?